Just Another Newsletter
This may be just another newsletter, but the very pit of my being cries out “we are undone, we are undone” and it likewise cries out “I am undone, I am undone”. To some, this may be just another newsletter, with the same tired rhetoric as the last 63 have been since November of 1996.
Although I haven’t written a massive number of newsletters since November of 1996, I am still in the fight, the towel is still folded on the chair outside the ring, and it is not going to be thrown in the ring, for the fight goes on!
Depression seems to be rampant, even among believers. I know about depression for I have battled with it for years, but I found one central fundamental truth – depression always follows a reaction or lack thereof. I could make a persuasive and cogent argument for my own depression - I was angry!
When I was taking Psychology many years ago, I learned depression was a result of something, or someone you are angry with and I see nothing wrong with that definition as a whole.
Yes, I am angry at the sins of the world, this country, and the church! Yet, even more so, I am angry with my own sin! I hate sin! I hate sin! I hate it with all my being!!
The longer I live, the more I realize that God is not that much concerned with our happiness. He does not necessarily want to bring frolic and good times our way, no matter what the feel good prosperity preachers say. He wants to grow us up! He wants to make us disciples of Yeshua. He sets us free to become slaves - slaves to Yeshua.
God wants to mature us and that is usually a slow, painful, and arduous task.
Of course God wishes us to experience joy, peace, and love. But happiness is like unto depression; it’s the result of a happening. Joy is from the Lord, while happiness is the result of something that happened.
Perhaps that is one reason why there is such a lack of holiness and Godly living in the main–line church. People are depressed. Yet, I am afraid there is a far greater reason for the lack of holiness; it is because many in the church have never experienced salvation. They know about God, they know about Yeshua, and about the Holy Spirit. They are very active in their churches and take on many roles, some even as the role of pastor – But, they do not know the Lord! I think one of the most damaging things is when someone says a little prayer, fills out a card, shakes hands with the preacher, and goes his way thinking he is saved. What is just as bad is the person who was baptized as a baby, took classes, was confirmed, and then he also believed he was on his way to heaven. Neither knows Him!
The reason why these individuals do not know Him is because they have never met Him. They only know about Him. Many have only a “church house” God. I am not using the word “know “as Paul declared:
“That I may know Him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of His suffering, being made conformable unto His death.” Philippians 3:10
I Brothers and sisters it's crunch time. There is a great insurrection of evil trying to usurp the main-line church. I do not see a nationwide revival or anything close to the ‘Great Awaking’. In fact, I see more and more that the church is conforming to the world. It is a tragedy that the world is molding the church into the image of itself.
Since November of 1996 our mission has changed very little, but one area I have modified. While I am still somewhere under the umbrella of the Messianic point of view - in that I believe we should keep the biblical feasts and a few other things taught - I am somewhere on the fringes of that umbrella. I am totally under the umbrella of Yeshua and I will never walk away from that covering.
Over the years I have trumpeted out warning after warning that the so-called main-line church is not being the Church. We have developed a stage for entertainment. Let me be quite candid, for the most part the entertainment is quite good, it’s very professional, but my heart aches for true preaching of the Word of God!
We do not need people standing in zapping lines, being zapped on the forehead and then falling backward on the ground!
I find it very interesting that the only account in the Bible of people falling backward on the ground was when Judas, the Roman cohort, and the officers from the chief priests came to arrest Yeshua, He told them, “I am He”, and then they fell backward to the ground. There are different translations on this verse, but I find it curious.
Where are the sermons on true repentance? Where, where, where? They are in the archives in the basement of the church, if they ever existed at all!
When is the last time people have fallen on their faces weeping over their sins? When have people actually cried out over their sins?
Our banal and callow attitude toward sin is worse than the sins themselves! Oh Lord, Oh Lord, forgive us! The church must be the vanguard and she is not!
I have warned that this nation is falling deeper and deeper into a cesspool of her own creation. We don’t give a tinker’s damn if another baby’s brain is sucked out. We couldn’t care less if state after state allows homosexual marriage. We could care less about how God is being kicked out of everything public - if you even mention the name of Jesus, then you have really crossed the line!
We elected a president that in my opinion represents evil. I believe he is either a Muslim or has strong, strong, Islamic leanings. But, his real love is for himself. He is a narcissist if there ever was one. Narcissistic personality disorder or (NPD) is a personality disorder in which the individual is preoccupied with issues of personal adequacy, power, prestige, and vanity. I ask: Does the definition not precisely describe our president? It does! He is in love with Obama and he will do anything to stay in office. Although he lies, he is not a total liar. He has kept one campaign promise. During his campaign run, above all the chants of “yes we can”, he stated he would change America. He has certainly done that, for the worse; and that promise has been devastating! Please hear me: We have crossed over the Rubicon and I see no return! We as individuals must experience personal revival, and many must experience salvation!
I have also mentioned the persecuted church. May I ask you how may times have you heard a sermon about those being persecuted? While we slurp up our coffee and down our donuts before church, thousands are being harassed, tortured, put in prison, and murdered. Why? For their faith in Yeshua. We must never forget those in prison for their faith in our blessed Lord and Savior. I tremble at the thought, as I write this newsletter, of how many are dying for their faith. I sit here in my study, comfortable, and safe, while my blessed brothers and sisters are being murdered! How many times have you prayed for these dear saints? Do we even care? It’s like a tornado that rips open a town, but if that town is many miles away we shake our heads and think that was really bad and go out for lunch. My God, my God help us and open up our ears and let us hear the cry of anguish of our brothers and sisters who are currently being persecuted in about 42 countries!
Are we so naïve as to believe persecution will not come to this country? If Canadian preachers speak out against homosexuality they can be arrested.
Over the course of 17 years I have written about the nation of Israel. There are those who hate Israel and Jews as well. We are to pray for the peace of Jerusalem! Yeshua is coming back and He will set His holy feet on the Mount of Olives smack dab in the middle of Jerusalem, not East Texas!!
We are turning our back on Israel as a country with the help of Obama. Be sure you read this correctly. If we as a country attack Israel or denounce Israel, I will denounce my citizenship. I will not fight God! I have already tried that.
Brothers and sisters it is certainly crunch time and satan will use any and every way to gain entrance into our lives and derail us. There are so many ways sin can creep in. Here is just one.
In November of 2012, I had a three day stay in a local hospital and it was life changing. I was very ill physically, and spiritually bankrupt. The doctors tried to diagnose me with COPD. My breathing was greatly compromised and my strength was almost diminished. Spiritually, I was in a state of mundaneness and status quo, and that is like unto being spiritually impotent.
I am not sure what happened, but physically I made a complete turnaround. To this day I have never felt better. Spiritually, I experienced a revival more than I had in years. I not only lost weight, but grew in the Lord. It was one of the more blessed spiritual experiences I have had in years!
I wanted to just obey the Lord! One of the more challenging areas in my life has been to reach out to others, because rejection is always there, lifting up its ugly head and saying “here I am.” But, I decided to reach out! I started with you on the mailing list and then my male in-laws. Now, I am not really that close to my male in-laws and I assume all the blame for that.
I decided to make a transmutation in our relationships. I wrote a letter to each of my male in-laws, about 15 in all, and just shared what was on my heart. I received no responses. I also requested feedback from newsletter recipients and I did not receive one response. But I didn't stop there. I believed the Lord wanted me to invite two or three men over to begin a men's prayer gathering. I contacted several and again nothing!
Now, for the spiritual lesson. Revival has to be maintained day by day. Sin can creep in if the smallest crack in the door is open! Sin does not have to be gross or horrendous; it can come in as almost innocent. Hurt can cause sin to get a foothold. Revival has to be maintained day by day. If I had only stopped and given all this to the Lord, I believe my spiritual revival would have continued and my walk would not have gone awry! It is simple; do not let the sun go down on your wrath. Hurt is often a type of anger. That experience was indeed the catalyst for about five months of decline. In no way do I blame my in-laws; they are good men. I blame no one on the mailing list, for I am honored to even send a newsletter to you. I blame myself!
We are to lay down our lives for our fellow man and that includes in-laws, family members, friends, and even enemies. Today, I have found an even deeper prayer life, and an even more precious walk, but that walk has to be maintained, not only day by day, but moment by moment. I am serious – I mean every few seconds sin can creep in and one day you look up and ask: “How did I get here?”
We must remain transparent and love regardless if it is returned or not. Sin is crouching at the door and the only way to keep that door shut is to abide day by day and moment by moment. Yeshua talks a lot about abiding especially in the 15th Chapter of John’s Gospel. We must, we must abide in the Vine!
This may be just another newsletter, but my heart cries out for each one of you to wake up, if you are asleep and see what is happening. I no longer care who wants to be on the mailing list. All I want to do is to write the best I can with all my heart what I deem the Lord wants me to write. I walked away from a speaking ministry, and away from God, and it took years to return. I will not, I can not, walk away again. I can only run to the cross, cling to it, and stay there. I must, we all must, abide in Christ! This may well be just another newsletter, but it’s written with all the passion and love I have for each of you. I have once again looked at each name and called it out to the Lord. I get few responses, but my goal is to do what I am supposed to do and not seek accolades!
In closing, I hope you will join with me and meditate on this one verse for five minutes every day, as I have for the past month.
“That I may know Him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of His suffering, being made conformable unto His death.” Phil – 3:10
You are only undone apart from our Messiah Yeshua (Jesus) and I am undone apart from Him as well. Depression is from satan and can destroy, while a burden can very well be from the Lord! I have a burden for the sins of the world, our country, and the church. Yes, I have a burden regarding my own sins, but praise God; I can walk in victory through Yeshua’s actions on the cross!’
And again I encourage you to meditate on Phil. 3:10
“That I may know Him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of His suffering, being made conformable unto His death.”
Lord, I want to know you; I want that knowing to be deeper than it ever has been. Can you reveal to me what the total power of your resurrection really is? Oh my Savior, do I dare to pray to fellowship in Your suffering? Do I dare? I must! In closing, my precious Lord, may I learn what it is to be conformed to Your death. Do I dare to die to self – I dare! May I be dead to all that lives that is not Spirit. May I not only be free from sin, but cast away, no matter how honorable it may appear, anything that may cause me to sin!
Oh God forgive me for sins I have committed. I praise Your Holy Name!
In the Name of Yeshua
My “undoneness” is made complete and whole through Christ Jesus. Yeshua is my strength and He must be yours as well.
This very well may be, just another newsletter, but I tried to be transparent and it was written in love!
Now may the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob bless you through His Son Yeshua.
In His Service,